one sided

I deserve more than your messages because you’re lonely or because you’re having a bad day  I used to think it was selfish of me to excuse myselfI’d feel bad because everyone deserves to have someone to listen I’m not that for you. I deserve more I deserve someone to ask me too someone there for my good and bad and not …

raw and pure

why do we have to hold onto things? why can’t we have them as they are, in the moment? raw and pure.  we parted ways with lovenot a romantic everlasting love but a love nonetheless  I’d cry happy tears whenever I thought of you,whenever I think of you. and everyone always asks me why I never sought you out why …

goodbye

* Sunrise *I grab your sleepy face and kiss you goodbye; one last time,you stir and kiss me back~I walk away~the beginning and the end ~your scent lingers in the airon my body~I walk past strangershoping they’re you.I hear your voice,I turn,and you’re nowhere to be found ~* Moon rise *I miss the comfort of you in the dark of the …

permission

some days i wish i had a different name one that people would forget ~or a different life one that people didn’t know a thing about ~i’ve done some silly things while drowning in alcoholtrying to forgetthen scrambling to gather the scattered pieces of me ~ i was vulnerable and lostyou touched my bodyyou didn’t even ask~i had to yell before you heard …

lonesome

loneliness;my best friendmy worst enemy my blanket of warmth along with the bottle of wine tears roll down my cheeks stuck. trapped. lost  i take another sipnothing changes loneliness consumes and I submit

full glass

sometimes I wonder i’m usually the kind to fill your glass fullwhile mine is empty until I realised I need to fill my own constantly seeking validation, caring too much but never enough about mewhy am I any less important than the rest? 

lonely road

I forget that sometimes it’s one step at a timeone foot in front of the othera seemingly long (very long) and lonely pathit was~and here I amfreefreer than I’ve ever been with a full heart meeting such incredibly beautiful people.~humbled~the road doesn’t seem so long and lonely after all

connections

I never trusted myself enough “stop seeking and you shall find”and I was holding onto a hope that was never certain –hope that one day I’d be enough  every person I met, “They might be the one” of if it felt wrong within me those words you spoke,“you have to let love in to feel love”  I stopped searching I stopped …

sometimes

sometimes,the best thing is the unknown the thingyou aren’t looking for the thing you aren’t expecting sometimes,the unknown turns out to be the best thing you could’ve ever hoped for ✨ 

to leave

sometimes it hits melike that wave from the depths of the ocean, I didn’t realise was surfacing until it crashed against the shore.  it hurts. to be around people, but to feel alone. you see, I travelled to the other side of the world, just my backpack and I, where not once did I feel …

i would(n’t)

if i could share you, I would(n’t)like a rare treasure, a gemisn’t it lucky to find something so precious? something so true to what you believe,something so natural. it seems all the questions, disappeared and the answers fell into my lap when I stumbled upon you.chance or fate, I’m not surebut the way our skin brushed against each …

love

love is not just about loving othersbut loving yourself too.love yourself on all days,dark and light,in all ways.love with compassion.loving someone, starts with loving you.