For the first time in a long time I took a deep breath and let go; all of the stress, worry and unnecessary feelings. I stood alone outside and looked up, how breathtakingly beautiful it was. Not only was the sun shining on my skin, but I felt the warmth radiating within my body too. It was indescribable. For so long, I felt gloomy and heavy like a grey storm cloud, yet now I was colourful and confident like a flower blooming in spring.
I really thought this journey to finding myself would make sense all at once like a light bulb moment where at one given time it would all just come together. Instead it’s the complete opposite. It’s the good with the bad, caring too much and caring too little, so overly happy one day and in a rut the next. It’s learning that we are all different. It’s learning about myself, and others too. Sometimes we make connections with people but it isn’t reciprocated. Or maybe it is, just not in the same way. And it doesn’t mean that they’re any less of a person, just different and that’s okay. Because what kind of world would it be if we were all the same?
It’s discovering myself piece by piece and it’s really quite spectacular. Every day I am learning something new and thankfully I am able to appreciate every little thing rather than discovering myself all at once – that would be too overwhelming, even for the faint-hearted. So my advice for you is to take it all in, appreciate and enjoy the journey to yourself, every little piece before the moment is gone.