some days i wish i had a different name 
one that people would forget 
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or a different life 
one that people didn’t know a thing about 
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i’ve done some silly things 
while drowning in alcohol
trying to forget
then scrambling to gather the scattered pieces of me 
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i was vulnerable 
and lost
you touched my body
you didn’t even ask
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i had to yell before you heard me
even then, you didn’t believe me
you wanted me to justify myself
“let’s keep this between us” you stated
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the memories are still there 
and I just want to forget