My time

Time moves fast, so fast. I’ve been waiting for this day for two years now and now it’s suddenly here and I’m not sure if i’m ready? But if I’m not ready now, will I ever be? It’s like all of a sudden, there’s so much to do, so many people to see and so little time.

I’ve written lists upon lists, and feel so  overwhelmed with it all. Do I have everything packed? How much will I actually need? Do I have too much? My bag has been packed for about seven months now (over prepared?) I’ve just been putting the things I’ll need as I think of them so I won’t feel so overwhelmed – yet I feel it hasn’t helped one bit, it’s almost made it worse.

Over the last two years, my life has changed completely and I wouldn’t have changed it for the world. I’ve made many new wonderful friends and it’s sad to leave them, but it’s my time. It’s my time to figure things out and explore; to sail the seas, and walk the mountains, to meet new people and catch up with old friends from around the globe. It is my time to find myself and however nerve-racking it is, I couldn’t be more excited.

Today

‘Maybe we’re all just little universes bottled up into little bodies and maybe we’re all just trying to find a universe that we want to spend the rest of our lives exploring.’ Unknown

Today, the sun was shining and the sky was this iridescent blue, with not a cloud in sight. The birds were flying about and it felt like spring. Today is the type of day that you get lost, where minutes turn into hours and before you know it, you’ve spent a whole day laying on the grass getting lost in the vast blue sky and the chorus of birds flying about. Today, was the day she found her sparkle again and the way she held herself, it changed. Today, was a good day.

Today, I felt the light within her shining. I could feel her travelling itch, and I got lost in her eyes, all of the places she dreamed of exploring. I could see the snow, mountains and iced over lakes, I could see the canals and boats and many bridges, I could see buildings many hundreds, even thousands of years old; I could see adventure. She wasn’t one to settle down, she need to move around. The last few weeks, it felt to her like the world was against her, until the stars finally aligned. Today, she was happy. Today, she found herself.